Wednesday, August 29, 2007

I was made to love

Yesterday I had forgotten that I was made to love.
There is a situation in our building were there are 2 assistants, sisters who are my friends. They were placed in the MH (multihandicapped) room. It ended up where only one could be there and there really isn't a position for the other one.
The sister that place in the MH room is very upset, crying etc. And the other one is still here doing not a whole lot and getting paid for it.
This appalled me and I was mad, resentful and bitter!
1st I came from the MH room and those are the most loving children you could ever work with. and 2 I know of positions open in the district where a child could benefit from these 2 wonderful sisters but they don't want change, they don't want to leave, they want their own way!
Yea I mad and I was yelling at God because I felt this way and I didn't want to. And he told me, yes I believe God talks to me, "Dawn, I'm in control. "
Well, I was taken aback, because that has been my matra since Rick was diagnosed with MS. God is in Control. I asked God for forgiveness. All that bitterness and resentment went away. Of course, this morning when I read my daily devotional it was about offense and to let go of bitterness. :-)
And I thought ok God it's done whatever happens You are in Control. And I'm going to love them because I was made to love. The bitterness and resentment is truly gone.
I love the lyrics to this song, Made to love by TobyMac.

TobyMac° Made To Love °
The dream is fading now I’m staring at the door
I know it’s over ‘cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain’t feeling what I see
Its no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for?
What became of the flame that made me feel more?
And when did I forget …
That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love and be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said You’d keep me never would You leave me
I was made to love And be loved by You
The dream’s alive with my eyes open wide
Back in the ring
You got me swingin’ for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin’ vapors on my dreams
But I still believe …
I’m reaching out, reachin’ up, reachin’ over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And Daddy I’m on my way …
Anything, I would give up for You
Everything, I’d give it all away

Friday, August 24, 2007

The Storm

Well today was the first full day of school and it started out with a bang or maybe I should say a BOOM!
I can mark off on things that I have experienced going thru in my lifetime, a tornado lock down at school. We got the notice that a severe thunderstorm was headed right our way just before we dismissed the kids. So it decided to keep them until the storm past. Then the severe thunderstorm warning turned into a Tornado warning. There was a flash and a big kaboom and the lights went out. 8th grade kids screamed, and then our emergency lights came on. Not room lights but lights in halls. Boy, what fun!
The kids were good. I was in the classroom with 5 kids and my teacher, Julie. On the other side of the door was 8th grade science. I think that is the quietest I've heard those kids in 3 years.
The buses were here already and we also have a bus that drops off kids from St. Mary's. So they came into the building to safety.
We held the kids for about 45 minutes, then dismissed them. They had to run thru the ran and lightening.
Oh did I mention that I'm scared of thunderstorms and especially tornadoes.
Fun ending to the day.
We are all safe and sound. Alan was home and Rick was at work.
Julie's son was dismissed from school, why? I don't know. She lives in Geneva and she was afraid that if the power went out her son would have no way to get into the house because he enters thru the garage door. But she did get in touch with him, he had told her that it was a BIG storm and that he was scared. She told him, that he could get something to eat and the 2 dogs, they have 1 german shepard and a lab/german shepard mix, and go down to the basement where he was safe. But that had to be very hard for her.

But all were fine no one was hurt.
Since there is so much rain/water that we didn't have school today. Funny using a snowday for rain. But I'm relieved that I didn't need to go anywhere.
We are soggy but pretty dry considering. A little bit of water in the basement but it's ok.

Just looking forward to the day off.

Thursday, August 16, 2007


Last Tuesday the 14th, there was terrible accident claiming the life of kindergarten teacher Marion Beguin. She was a teacher at Wright Elementary in the school district where I work and know many teachers that she worked with. She and her daughter, Kathryn, were on their way home from setting up her classroom, her daughter was driving. They were crossing an intersection where a semi truck ran the red light and hit the passenger side of the car.
This has affected me a lot. I didn't know Marion I do know Tracy Paszotta the other teacher that taught kindergarten at Wright. This will have a profound effect on that staff but also the staff at Jefferson Elementary where she also taught.
My prayer goes out to her family, friends and especially her daughter, for strength, peace, forgiveness and love.

"Cry Out To Jesus" Third Day
To everyone who's lost someone they love
Long before it was their time
You feel like the days you had were not enough
when you said goodbye
And to all of the people with burdens and pains
Keeping you back from your life
You believe that there's nothing and there is no one
Who can make it right

There is hope for the helpless
Rest for the weary
Love for the broken heart
There is grace and forgiveness
Mercy and healing
He'll meet you wherever you are
Cry out to Jesus,
Cry out to Jesus

Friday, August 10, 2007


Well we have been on vacation this week. Thought I would update my blog while I got the chance. Vacation for the past several years has been spent at my parents home. We bring our popup and camp beside their house. Mom and Daddy live in a wooded community in the country. It's really pretty. We go here because we can afford it and we like spending time with my parents. We see all kinds of wildlife including wild turkey, squirrel, chipmunks and of course deer. They have 3 fawns and their moms, aunts or babysitters with them, when they walk thru my parents lots. A couple of days ago I got a picture of 2 of the fawns. A first for me. I've been trying to get pictures of the deer for awhile, about 5 years or more. We always hate leaving and put it off for as long as we can.
I feel very lucky to have such a good relationship with both of my parents and my inlaws. Not many people can say that. I just feel we need to get along with each other regardless of differences of opinions. Life is too short. I gotten to see people this week, see animals and spend time with people we love.
We went camping when I was growing up. And I got to see many many things. The beautiful mountains in colorado, canada. the grand tetons Mt. Rainier probably Mt St. Helens before it blew its top the first time. Old Faithful and the plains. I haven't been on the east coast and calf. new mexico and nevada. Sometime I will. I've realized this week how much I've missed going camping. Must make that a priority for this fall. Love vacation.