Yesterday I had forgotten that I was made to love.
There is a situation in our building were there are 2 assistants, sisters who are my friends. They were placed in the MH (multihandicapped) room. It ended up where only one could be there and there really isn't a position for the other one.
The sister that place in the MH room is very upset, crying etc. And the other one is still here doing not a whole lot and getting paid for it.
This appalled me and I was mad, resentful and bitter!
1st I came from the MH room and those are the most loving children you could ever work with. and 2 I know of positions open in the district where a child could benefit from these 2 wonderful sisters but they don't want change, they don't want to leave, they want their own way!
Yea I mad and I was yelling at God because I felt this way and I didn't want to. And he told me, yes I believe God talks to me, "Dawn, I'm in control. "
Well, I was taken aback, because that has been my matra since Rick was diagnosed with MS. God is in Control. I asked God for forgiveness. All that bitterness and resentment went away. Of course, this morning when I read my daily devotional it was about offense and to let go of bitterness. :-)
And I thought ok God it's done whatever happens You are in Control. And I'm going to love them because I was made to love. The bitterness and resentment is truly gone.
I love the lyrics to this song, Made to love by TobyMac.
TobyMac° Made To Love °
The dream is fading now I’m staring at the door
I know it’s over ‘cause my feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I ain’t feeling what I see
Its no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for?
What became of the flame that made me feel more?
And when did I forget …
That I was made to love You
I was made to find You
I was made just for You
Made to adore You
I was made to love and be loved by You
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said You’d keep me never would You leave me
I was made to love And be loved by You
The dream’s alive with my eyes open wide
Back in the ring
You got me swingin’ for the grand prize
I feel the haters spittin’ vapors on my dreams
But I still believe …
I’m reaching out, reachin’ up, reachin’ over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehovah
And Daddy I’m on my way …
Anything, I would give up for You
Everything, I’d give it all away