Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Today seems very strange. I have a doctors appointment and will not be going to school/work today. I feel very relieved because finally after 4 months I will be on the road to getting my "normal" voice back. This has been very frustrating especially at work. Trying to get the kids attention with my voice, they just don't hear me. My only concern is that what if this is more serious than I think. Cancer is on both sides of my family so it's a niggling thought in the back of my mind.
Justin my student asked me when I told him I wouldn't be there today said," But who's going to take care of me?" and "Are you coming back?" He is so cute, but trying sometimes. I'm hoping he'll be good for the sub and not try her patience too much.
Also I have lost 11 pounds in almost 6 weeks. So the next 10 pounds is my next goal. I needed to cancel my dietitian appointment because my insurance won't cover and I can't afford to continue to go to her. My doctor knows so I'm pretty sure he'll understand.
I've gone to weight watchers for many years and have put those ideals into practice. I might return, but not right now. I think that I've gone for so many years that I just want to say hey I did it but with a little more help. So maybe this will take the place of the dietitian but, I have 3 online support groups that I belong to so...
Also, another change is that after bowling with my in laws for 17 years we have quit. They raised the bowling fees $10 a week to establish a bigger pot at the end of the year. We just can't afford that so we quit. It wasn't a nice situation. I'm actually looking forward to my Sunday's free. When we go to visit my parents we won't need to hurry back. So that will be nice.
Bobbie will be the next big change. He isn't a happy dogger so eventually we will need to put him asleep. We'll miss him terribly but we have given him alot of love that was returned.
Changes some good, some bad and painful but they are a part of life.