Monday, November 17, 2008
You know in my life I knew that I would need to deal with my heart problems and asthma problems. I have high blood pressure that I have inherited from my Dad's side of the family and also caused by being overweight. I felt that, that was all I would be dealing with and fighting. Cancer, well that is a foreign disease that maybe I would need to deal with later in life.
So, having a diagnosis of "adenoid cystic carcinoma" and possible life time left of 4 years, come on, get real.
But....I have been given diagnosis. I needed to regroup and refocus.
No way am I going to live just 4 more years! I have sons that are not married yet. I want to see them get married. I want to see my Grandkids be born and be Grandma.
I want to grow old with my husband. I want to see the Pacific and Atlantic Oceans. I know I have a lot of "I wants" but more than anything I want to live and grow old.
I have grown up believing that God is bigger than anything here on Earth and I believe that. So...in my mind I will see all the things and more that I have listed because, Jesus said, "By my stripes you are healed." And I believe that. So bring on the rain because it's going to bring God the Glory!